Carolyn Holbrook’s life is peopled with ghosts—of the girl she was, the selves she shed and those who have caught up to her, the wounded and kind and malevolent spirits she’s encountered, and also the beloved souls she’s lost and those she never knew who beg to have their stories told. “Now don’t you go stirring things up,” one ghostly aunt counsels. Another smiles encouragingly: “Don’t hold back, child. Someone out there needs to hear what you have to say.”
Once a pregnant sixteen-year-old incarcerated in the Minnesota juvenile justice system, now a celebrated writer, arts activist, and teacher who helps others unlock their creative power, Holbrook has heeded the call to tell the story of her life, and to find among its chapters—the horrific and the holy, the wild and the charmed—the lessons and necessary truths of those who have come before. In a memoir woven of moments of reckoning, she summons stories born of silence, stories held inside, untold stories stifled by pain or prejudice or ignorance. A child’s trauma recalls her own. An abusive marriage returns to haunt her family. She builds a career while raising five children as a single mother; she struggles with depression and grapples with crises immediate and historical, all while countenancing the subtle racism lurking under “Minnesota nice.”
Here Holbrook poignantly traces the path from her troubled childhood to her leadership positions in the Twin Cities literary community, showing how creative writing can be a powerful tool for challenging racism and the healing ways of the storyteller’s art.
- rightsExcerpts from “Yellow Taxi” by Eve Joseph, from At the End of Life: True Stories about How We Die, Lee Gutkind, editor (Creative Nonfiction Books, 2012), are reprinted with permission of the author.
Excerpts from Sisters of the Yam: Black Women and Self-Recovery by bell hooks (Boston: South End Press, 1994) are reprinted with permission of the author.
Lines from Lucille Clifton, “at the cemetery, walnut grove plantation, south carolina, 1989” from The Collected Poems of Lucille Clifton. Copyright 1991 by Lucille Clifton. Reprinted with permission of The Permissions Company, LLC, on behalf of BOA Editions Ltd., www.boaeditions.org.
Lines from “Ego-Tripping (there must be a reason why)” from The Collected Poetry of Nikki Giovanni, 1968--1998 by Nikki Giovanni. Copyright for compilation 2003 by Nikki Giovanni. Reprinted by permission of HarperCollins Publishers.
Copyright 2020 by Carolyn Lee Holbrook
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